Lost

I don't know what should i do?
I'm lost,again.
前方迷茫，我不懂怎样做才好，
我是个没有安全感的女生，
我没有办法在爱情里冒险，
因为这样，我会错过很多机会，
是吗？因为我胆小。
我讨厌我的自尊，我的胆小性格，
它让我从以前到现在，一直错过很多东西，
这一次，还要这样吗？

I'm scare of losing you because there is only one of you.
I know too much ego will kill those chances.
Cause I'm a girl juz a lil' bit different from others.
that's why I wil lost whenever I face such problem.
Law is different from theory of love,
Sometimes I'm just too rational when faced such problem.
God, tell me what should i do?