last day of july

七月的最后一天,事情还是没有改变,
没有行动,又怎么会有改变呢?
最近,太多东西要烦,
副作用好像又来了,
睡不好,吃不下, 压力大,头晕晕..
主要是问题来时,我就有要呕的感觉.
惨了,是什么病?
我自己怀疑这是心理上的反应.
唉~压里很大啊~!!!!!!
心里压抑的情绪无法得到正常管道抒发,
有天我会疯掉:(:(
希望下个月会更好吧..


p.s:我真的不想和你吵架T.T

Insomnia

Mr Insomnia, can you go away from me just for a night?:(
I was having insomnia for the few nights ady,
I couldn't sleep properly,
sometimes I may even woke up during midnight,
and I think of the problem,
then I felt that I couldn't sleep T.T
maybe I think too much..
maybe I'm just too weak especially when deal with such problem:(
maybe I just fell into the trap..and it is too deep..that's why I'm not able to climb up.
what happened? I don't know why and I wish to know.
I don't know whether there was my fault:(
you don't understand or I don't understand?T.T
This is how I feel when I 'm extremely helpless..
I cried for the whole night:((
Night is silent, yet nobody knows about it..

Anniversaire 2010

21/7/2010 is my birthday..
old jor..=.=
btw, it was a wonderful night for me:)

a good day, with good friends, and good ambience of singk room:)
it was a surprise when I first saw the wall paper of that room..
taddaa~surprise~!!!
and the big pooh bear as well:D thanks to all of you:)
hope that we able to keep in touch~
take care my friends..
happy bday to myself:D

纪念

纪念,今天是我21岁的最后一天..
哈哈..老了啦..
不能时光倒流..哎..
希望明天起可以好好生活,
过得比之前更精彩..
因为明年的这个时候,我就不是学生了..
加油,我说, 我要快乐地生活..=)

moody

oh my god..my 21st is going to come to an end tis wed:(
argh..i very sad..
seriously,it makes me emo alot and alot:(
i wana do something c razy b4 i end my 21st year old..
but what can I do?
sienz..I'm having midterm tests this few days..
study like a nerd..life is meaningless..
argh...so sick of it now..!!!!
when getting older, it seems like no point to celebrate bday anymore T.T
everything is meaningless now..ZZzzzz
God, tel me what should I do in order to leave a good 21st memory:)?

每一天都不同

最討厭　要下不下的雨
可惜未來總是　撲朔迷離
如果摔的越痛　才越會飛行
快把我　丟向最高的天空裡

不喜歡　別人說 我幸運
他們不懂我有　多麼努力
雖然衝動永遠　比堅持容易
寶貴的東西都需要很費心

碰到的事　每一天都不同
有 的給我眼淚　有的給我笑容
終於會珍惜花開不怕花落
走過的曲折　就全變成彩虹

遇見的人　每一天都不同
偶爾失去什麼 　偶爾學到什麼
慢慢能翻越沙洲走出日落
每一天的我　要比　昨天遼闊

連我都不相信自己的時候
只有你一直相信我
此 刻我什麼也不想說
因為擁抱能表達得更多




p/s:唱出了我的心声:(

一周年纪念

happy one year anniversary:D
hehe..already one year since my last year 21st bday celebration..
well, time flies...
sigh...now i'm 22nd adi..damn fast..
few more days it is my bday..
I don't wish for anything this year..
Just pray that everything is fine..
that's enough for me..

confession

每一滴眼泪,
都在提醒着我有多在乎..
任由它放肆地滑落..
我..就这样成了泪人:(:(

emo emo:(

emo:(

sigh..this few days, I'm deeply in bad mood..
I don't know why also..but really bad mood..:(
when mention about the chambering thingy,
I feel very frustrated..hate the feeling of seems like 'don't know where to go'.
Where should I go?
I feel to give myself a chance to work in KL..
but then the salary is surely not enough for me to cover up my expenses.
So, what is the reason I go KL to work?!!RM1500 so what?!!
That's still not enough for me..to pay the rental,car loan, transportation fees..etc.
how about malacca?rm300?!!! please, can it be don't so low..
I really can't accept the salary is going to be lower then what i get during attachment time:(

So sad, until now, I don't know which firm I can enter..:(:(
I hate this type of feeling..
I'm type of person who always know what I want and where I should go..
now, I'm lost:(:(
*Pray* what i want is just a good job with good boss and good paid..that's all..

不习惯

since when you started to play an important role
in my life,
I hate to be like this..
It seems like is a never ending game...
I become so upset, for no reason..
why? I asked myself..